Wondering....
Why I am so bad at following up on things... I have to work so hard at that. I started this blog to be able to get all of the craziness out of my head, to keep my friends updated on what is going on in my life, to keep people entertained with the life that I lead, the weird things that happen to me. I am bad at calling people back. I am bad at following through with promises. I am a procrastinator. I take forever to do things. I have to work on this.

I know that I ramble on this blog, which is pretty much how I talk to people. We could be focusing on one topic and my mind will wander after a few minutes (if i'm lucky to last that long) It is not because I am not interested but there will be something said that will make my brain and thoughts segway into something that can be so completely different that people question where the hell it came from. So I am trying to work on some things that I can change about myself but it's hard to change the kind of person you are.

The hardest thing to change about myself is to quit smoking. I am so scared of the weight gain, the fight to not want to, to not buy a pack, and especially the moods. Anyone who knows me knows that I am crazy moody as it is, so my mood won't get any better with the quitting. I find an excuse everyday to keep me from quitting and I have to admit that none of those excuses are good enough. I hate the way I smell, I hate the way I need to have at least 3 for the morning. I hate that I spend my hard earned money (shut up- I do work hard for my paycheck- well most of the time) on those little cancer sticks. I NEED AN OUT WITHOUT THE PAIN.

There you go, I am already bored with this blog. I'll write more later when I can focus again.