People are commenting...
But who? Is it the same person? This mystery person, or others who are checking this blog? I am pleased. It motivates me to write more and then you get more and let's be honest- that just makes you HAPPY.

So there's this guy at tennis and I think he's crushing on me- he's really nice, funny, successful, and a phenominal player. You're waiting for the but (right?) But, I don't feel the butterflies with him and I honestly still think about SH (DO NOT COMMENT ON THAT PLEASE?) This guy VJ texts me, writes to me and I see him checking me out on the courts. And he wrote the sweetest line I have received in a long time:

Is there even one guy at the Tennis Center who DOESN'T secretly wear a heart shaped locket with your picture inside?

Who swooned? I have to admit that I did a little... Then I thought of SH and I wished it came from him. What is wrong with me??? Why can't I feel good about this? Why can't I see that there is a man who is trying to get to know me, not like every other guy I have dated who just wanted my rock hard body (is there no end to my narcissism?) Joking.

But seriously, I watched "Walk the Line" the other day and it doesn't help that SH looks like Joaquin Phoenix (for those of you to click on and check him out if you don't know who he is & since you live under a rock) with a blonde shaved head (YUM) and blue eyes. Ok, Ok! He and I will never be together again. I get it. THEN WHY CAN'T I STOP!!! I wish I could have the "Sunshine of the Spotless Mind" (or whatever the hell it's called) done to me with men. Erase each one- start fresh- clean slate- no memories whatsoever- However, I do have that experience with the rest of my life... Can't remember much, lucky if I remember my address.

So, I have this dilemna (when don't I have one?) and I know I shouldn't hook up with anyone at tennis (can you say awkward) but who knows what will happen? I'll let you know.