Something nice

i feel like i should mention the things that i like about bc because i continue to wax on about all of my amazing qualities. you know, like why i do like him and continue to spend time with him...

the things that make bc so endearing to me are:




hmmm...








ummm...







yeah...






ok... i think something's coming to me...







nope, lost that thought....








my hair is so soft! DAMN, focus!








HE'S A GOOD GUY. AND A LOT OF FUN. AND OUR CHEMISTRY WORKS. period.

there, that wasn't so hard.

Moony-Eyed

bc is behaving like a moony-eyed teenager- that's it- it's over for him- he is madly in love with me and doesn't know what to do with himself. he says crazy things to me, sick things, things that make me go hmmm...(shout out to The C+C Music Factory)

"i cannot wait to see you" calm down, buddy
"i think you're so hot- no really, you are soooo hot" yeah no shit
"i really like you" no dummy, you really lurrrve me
"i hate you" (i like that one) no you don't, you really lurrrve me
"tell me you love me" why? do you want me to lie to you?
"i love you as a person" yeah, i know, who doesn't? and you really lurrrve me as a gf as well
"i hope you get hurt on your rollerblades" PLEASE! when i said ok...he yelled at me and told me that i better be careful or else!
"i am allowed to speak to my exes, but you are not!" he thinks it bothers me that he does so- i just think he's crazy
"i would like to have sex witchou" yeah bc, who wouldn't?
"what would you like to do this weekend? i would like to go out, maybe do some "shopping", "walk around", "have some dinner", hold hands... wait, what? that's disgusting...
"i love you, d, please don't write about everything i say" ok (as i write everything he says down in my trusty notebook for future use)

he will, of course, deny all of these statements. and he will repeat that he hates me like a gazillion times. i worked hard at getting this guy to wake the fuck up and realize that i'm the shit. i got what i wanted. and i just want him to know that I ALWAYS GET WHAT I WANT (insert snapping of fingers here)

I'll keep you my dirty little secret


bc told me a dirty little secret... and told me not to share it with anyone else- i'm very good at keeping secrets so i will not let anyone in on the fact that bc thinks, T H I N K S, that he could possibly, P O S S I B L Y, have feelings for me... as in love feelings. WOW. that is the wildest thing i have ever heard. we've been seeing each other for almost 6 months now and have been in contact for longer. he's very angry that he is feeling this way. it's too soon, he says. it should take a long time, idiot says. oh? how long should it take? 1 year. that was what he told me on monday night. LAST NIGHT he said the same things to me except this time he said 9 months. i'm waiting for the same spiel tonight and for the amount of time to go down to 6 months and TADA! he will be able to be okay with the fact that i am lovable, to him and to all. oh, how tough it must be for bc to realize that he is with a person that can make him laugh out loud, can HEAT up food like wolfgang puck, can turn him on just by looking at him, can listen to him when he needs a sympathetic ear, has the greatest tits this side of the mississippi... must really suck to have feelings for someone like that.

i have feelings for bc as well. i just have to sort them out in my head. one day they're stronger than the last, then less than the day before. maybe we both have some thinking to do.

now i'm thinking bc lurrrrrves me.
and now i'm thinking my hair is so soft...